A Transition

I'm in the process of writing a post called Fracture, that will serve as a superficial documentation of the Soul-fracturing I had to do in order to make it through this very racist and hateful workplace I have finally left behind. And I've been trying to go to bed for the past two hours and am failing miserably. I need something to tide me over until Fracture is complete. A prelude of sorts.

During the long work hours, I started playing something I liked to call The Acrostics Game.  Depending on the situation (and my mood), I'd choose a letter from the name of a person involved to describe the mood, theme or situation that arose.

This is the acrostic I made up to describe myself during the past three months of my Summer employment:

A is for abrasive or asshole
U is for unforgiving
R is for rude
I is for I-don't-give-a-shit
E is for extroverted
N is for nasty

Now that that particularly horrible phase of my Summer has ended, I'm working on reclaiming and redefining myself.

A is for attentive, and affectionate
U is for understanding
R is for responsible--something about being the first born kid has this rooted in my Soul
I is for introvert. It's also for intentional; I try hard to be mindful of the consequences of my actions, for better or for worse
E is for educating, myself and others
N is for nice and nurturing

Being a Gemini has its perks, cause it was easy to become a monster.  Now the real trial is becoming human again....