Spring Break Adventure

I reckon I should update on my Spring Break Adventure.  It's now been downgraded to one trip, and one Conference.

I decided not to attend the MEChA National Conference in Phoenix.  I had not realised how anxious I was about going, until I decided I wasn't.  I had a great talk with my Libra to break down my anxieties.  Basically, MECha has a long way to go to be an inclusive space for queer and trans* folx, and I wasn't about to be the poster child/scapegoat.  I made the decision today that I won't be going to any. I feel my energy is better spent elsewhere.

Because I didn't go to MEChACon, I didn't have to worry about finding my way from Phoenix to LA, didn't have to worry about staying at stranger's houses and the expense of traveling in LA.  That gives me a headache just thinking about it.

Now I just have to worry about traveling from here to LA with two awesome folx.  I am so stoked to spend time with my Twin and their friend.  There's nothing like a 27-hour bus ride to help with bonding.  That is, if I can stay awake. -___-

I find I'm not as excited for the Queer People of colour Conference as I was a few weeks ago.  have a list of anxieties that can go on and on, like meeting new people, being around so many people, going to workshops and being around new people, being with people I don't know...  But then I remember that I can always leave the workshop and get some solitude.

And I also know that this is all performance anxiety.  When I'm at the Conf, I'll turn it on like a light switch and be marvelous. But I haven't been this nervous about a trip in ages.  Oh, well, there's also the factor of talking with so-n-so that's got my colon spazzing out like a two-year-old who ate too many oranges. :le sigh:

I think a few deep breaths and some Immodium AD will set me right.  I just wish I was there already :/