Ten years ago, I was sex=crazed. I was consuming a lot of media that told me sex was the only way to be intimate--romantically--with a person and I was channeling my desire for intimacy into a desire for sex.
Ten years late, and a three-year intensive int he Pacific Northwest has taught me there are other ways to be intimate, romantically, than sex. Connecting physically (non sexually), mentally, emotionally, spiritually (personally) rank higher than any sexual contact I'd have with a romantic partner, although that's not to say all areas can be hit through sex.
One of my biggest anxieties when starting T was the increased libido, and how that would... influence my behaviours. I thought I might become some sort of sex-crazed monster making really rash and unsafe decisions, in terms of sexual behaviours and emotional safety.
I guess I really shouldn't believe all the stories I hear and read, because yeah, my libido increased, but I'd also say I'm less interested in engaging sexually (or romantically) with people than before. And maybe that's just my perspective currently--where my main focus is on getting the fuq out of the PNW. And I'm fine with that. Sex takes a lot of work, and I'm really about... redistributing that energy.
These are interesting thoughts to me. I'l check back in about this topic int he New Year.
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