Coma

My Heart is beginning to wake up.  Sometimes it's alright and I can ignore it, but I'm working on letting my emotions work themselves out.  And this weekend was quite the workout.

I had completely forgotten about her, and then she walked into the room...  The only words that came to mind were "Oh snap."  Her personality is so big that I feel it swelled to fill the boardroom, kind of like my...  Anywayz.  There's just something about her charisma and her personality....  It really was all I could do to remain non-biased when she spoke.  Her arguements are so sound that I just get swept up in the current of my Heart and go along with it... but I managed to stay relatively close to shore. ;}

At one point during the PNMR, I had to break away from the discussion and I journalled furiously about some of my more lustful desires (it was rather hard to focus anyway), and how I only needed the opp to make my move.  Lo and behold if not ten minutes after that frantic wish, I get my chance.  And I jumped.  But I gotta say I underperformed.  Most likely due to my nerves, but I have been out of the Game for awhile....  It could just have been her; she's more than a little intimidating.  But I think it's for the best.  With MECh@ (as with most orgs) it's unwise to mix business and pleasure. It's so easy for things to get messy.  And while I'm gonna be respectful, and heed her wishes, I will not take my eye off the prize.  It would be unwise of me not to try and see where this could go.

I want what I want and I go after it.  I have patience now, and I'm willing to wait.  And I have this feeling... that an opp is going to present itself.  And I'll be damned if I'm caught off-guard.