Shopping!!

Tomorrow I am going to Goodwill in Seattle to get new clothes!! Or more accurately, me's clothes.  It's not as if this is a newsflash, since I've always shopped in the men's section.  But now it holds new significance, since it's part of syncing my mental image of self with the outward appearance.

It was not until recently that I am reminded how important clothing is to flagging people to their gender category.  And how horribly unmatched most of my clothes are to mine.  V__V

Living in Olympia, it's somewhat easier to forget that the mainstream--drown in the river!!-- holds so much sway over our perceptions and expectations of people based on their outward appearance.  That week down in San Diego reminded me violently that this experience, this bubble I live in in just that.  Eventually I will leave it and go back into the wide world and have to deal with being stereotyped even more than I am now.  But I digress...

Wearing loose-fitting and men's garments makes me happy. I don't feel as angry or resentful, because there is a less likelihood that I will be ma'amed (which pisses me off to no end).  

Tomorrow will be great.  I will throw down more money than I have in months.  Too bad this transition isn't tax-deductible. :/