Late Night Thoughts...

I should have been in bed two hours ago, with my sick ass.  BUt I got caught up on tumblr. XP

I've been thinking a lot lately about gender and sexuality and I realise that sometimes I still intertwine the two.  Take for example Monday (or Tuesday...?) when I was filling out the Queer People of Color Conference registration form.  They asked for gender: that was easy enough.  They asked for Sexuality... and I stopped and had to literally disentangle my gender identity from my preferences.  I put 'pansexual' just because I don't want to limit myself, and also because I don't think folks really appreciate how diverse and fluid gender is.

And then I've also been thinking about the latest woman who's taken my fancy.  The more I heed my Intuition, the stronger it becomes, and it's telling me not to launch. And I'm thinking it's time to do what it says rather than what I want.  I do what I want a lot and I need to practise more self-control, particularly in matters of the Heart.  I have not forgotten how the last two people who had my Heart (both Scorpios) stung and trod on me.  Sure, this person of interest is a Water sign, but...  Eh. Just no.  The more I try to rationalise it, the more pathetic I appear to my own self.  Walking away.

I've been having some interesting dreams lately.  I should start journalling them again, but I'm too lazy.  :P

I've been thinking a lot about money lately... mainly how I seem to be without any.  I'm contemplating selling my soul to RAD services, but before I get that far... I'm going to try to find a tutoring position at a public school.  But I'll most likely end up with RAD, cause that's job stability if I ever knew it.

I swear my hair is growing faster than I can keep up with it.  It's almost annoying. I know one morning I'm going to wake up with it strangling me.  I give it a year....

I would not be surprised if I woke up tomorrow without my voice. My throat is sore, but not unmanageable.  I think I might have laryngitis, which is fine by me.  I need to practise my listening skills. :)

I should go to bed now, but I just got this idea for a blog post.  I swear I'll got ot bed after it... at some point. ;}