Happiness

I've been thinking about how content I've been feeling lately.  I have to attribute the majority of this mental calm to finally coming into my trans* gender identity.  :D  Who knew that so much mental anguish and anxiety could be caused by being shoved into a box that I never belonged in? -___-

But I want to focus on the god things.

-  The days don't seem so dreary, or else I am now able to see that this Olympia chapter will come to an end.

-  I am finally stable enough to let my Heart begin to thaw. It's uncomfortable, having romantic feelings for folx again, esp in thinking about being intimate with them, but I'm taking it one step at a time and trying NOT to lust after unavailable people.  I deserve someone who is willing and able to give me their time and attention.

-  I'm not so concerned with finding a focus at Evergreen. I know what I know, and most of my knowledge is not gained in the classroom.  I'm just trying to finish up with my Soul intact.

- I'm going tot eh QPOCCon.  I have no idea where I'm going to get eh funds to travel from Phoenix to LA and then back to Oly, but I have confidence that things will work themselves out.  And I will rely on the kindness of strangers.

-I have really great people surrounding me.  Now that my depression is lifting, I can fully appreciate them.  I'm much happier because of it.  Also, some people who were annoying me are gone.  That makes things easier too. :D

-  I have a meeting with my potential therapist.  I'm excited to meet them and see how our chemistry works.  If we do mesh, I'm super stoked to talk with them regularly, even though I have no clue where the money to pay will come from....  Hmm.

- I checked again today where the hell my tax refund is, and apparently it should be along shortly.  I just hope it come before my rent is due.  Pray for me.